The Circus is coming to town

So my kids are doing a circus concert at school.  Faith's is this week and the little kids are next week.  Payton bragged to her teacher that her mom "is the best costume maker ever"  So the teacher phoned and asked for my help making costumes.  So she said she needed a zebra and tiger.  So I went to value village found a black hoodie, orange hoodie, and orange pants. I bought white and black duct tape.  It took me a couple of hours, but I managed to put together some really cute costumes.  They have tails and ears.  I'm really proud of them.

I need to get one of the tiger costume. 

Anyways, made me feel good to do something for someone else who appreciates it.

Thoughts

Spring is slowly coming.  It is still cold, but at least the sun is getting warmer and the snow is slowly melting.  The yard at the school I work at is ssslllooowlllyy drying.  It was one big muddy mess.  Our fort in the front yard is still going strong.  I think the kids will be upset when Dustin starts shoveling the snow around the yard to help it melt.

This summer should be fun, with no obligations here in the city, I'm free to do what I want.  The kids have two weeks where they are in camp, but other then that no plans.  Yup that's right NO plans.  No plans you say, yup no plans.  I've been left out again.  Seems I've been pushed to the side.  My *friends* have planned their whole summer together.  Bitter much Tenille?  Yes, I'm bitter, hurt, jealous, angry... all those negative emotions.  It sucks being the one on the outs.

But I plan on making this summer better then last.  Which really can't be hard, last year was horrible, lowest of the low.  This whole year has dragged on, like I'm being punished over and over again.  Dustin has refused to play the game, he keeps telling me just let it go, so make different friends.  Helpful isn't he?  Clayton asked me tonight why he doesn't see his friend very often anymore, I told him the truth, well kiddo its cause they don't like me much anymore.  Depressing isn't it?  I would normally talk to my mom about stuff like this and cry on her *shoulder* but the world has taken that relief from me as well.  My *person* is no longer an option,really because they haven't been my person for a while now.  See what happens when you put your heart and soul out there.... but I keep trying.

This summer is going to be a blast.  I'm going to make some fantastic memories for my kids.  We are going to spend LOTS of time at the beach, park, splash pad, maybe even go to the water slide.  I can't take the kids to the water slide alone, so I'm really hoping Dustin will come with us.  I'm also hoping that Dustin will come to the beach with us.  He still has lots of work to do on the cabin, plus he'll be away for some of the summer.  Although he did promise it won't be for more then a couple of days at a time.  Payton wants to draw chalk people on the street again.  She loved it last time, she kept drawing ninjas.

This summer is full of possibilities.  Spring is for new life, new hope, new beginnings.