It's funny how the saying goes "One year someone can be the most important person in your life, the next year, they are just a person in your past.
I always tell the kids to shake it off and tomorrow will be another day, but when it happens to you rejection hurts and hurts big time. I've made my mistakes. I was feeling very depressed and overwhelmed often pulling away from friends. I often started feeling like the 3rd wheel. They often made plans with me than changed them to suit the other one. Later I find out that I've been deliberately excluded from something or otherwise snubbed. Reject hurts no matter your age.
Friends are suppose to be there to support you no matter what, no matter what you are going through. There have been times in their lives when I've supported them in their times of need. When it comes to my time nothing. I get snubbed. Than I find myself feeling crappy and grumpy and coldly towards them. When in reality all I want is to be included.
I was going walking with my kids the other day and one friend of course was invited over to the other friends house. Yes amazing we all live on the same street, not much goes unnoticed. Feeling rejected yet again, I put my ipod in and listened to music on my walk. What song comes up that NEVER comes up but an old song that my mom used to sing to me. It was a silly song she changed the words to. She was always doing that, I felt immediately better like mom was there to give me a hug.
I did something this week. I quit something that has been important to me for the past 8 years. I joined this group to make friends and be apart of something. My life has revolved around this organization and I feel this group is important. I still want to see it thrive and carry on. But I can no longer be in the group. It hurt bad, really bad to pull out. But I tend to run and hide when hurt and rejected.
Now to shake it off and move on, harder on some day than others.
