Interesting

As you get older in life you realize life has taught me lessons along the way.  Some you learn from, some you don't, some apparently life feels you didn't really learn the lesson and need to learn it again.

There is a reason I am the way I am.  Years of being laughed at and made fun of.  Years of putting my neck out there, turn the other cheek kinda thing. My boss said to me "Oh Tenille you are such a private person, I hardly know anything about you."


I've learned over the years the only person you can count on is yourself and more times then not your husband.  My husband and I are helpful people, someone asks us for help or invites us places; if we can help or go we go.  If we can't we let the people know.
There has been times when we've asked for help, and get nothing, or they say yes and then don't show up at all; or don't respond.  There has been times where I've planned parties and everyone says oh yes I'll be there and nothing. When I'm invited somewheres, more often then not I go whether I want to or not.  I was invited, I want to go to spend time with the person who invited me.


Now I know you're thinking awe poor Tenille, she's feeling sorry for herself.  Well you're damn right I am.  Maybe my expectations are too high??  Maybe I should change my helpfulness??  I don't know? 
Apparently I haven't learned this lesson, or maybe life is trying to push me??  Cause I keep doing it expecting different results.  What is the definition of insanity?  Doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result.  Yeah that's me in a nut shell.