Well what an interesting summer it's been. With Dustin gone most of June and July and my not working, it's been a tough summer.
There's been some good parts thrown in there and lots of pj days. But over all it's been a really bad summer for me. Dealing with a household all on my own, making breakfast, lunch and dinner; cleaning; doing laundry; finding things for the kids to do. It's hard and I don't envy single parents at all. I didn't have any breaks from the kids and I was SUPER grumpy. I don't have family close by to help and Dustin's family is useless. It's like the kids knew what to say and do just to make me more grumpy; I know you're all surprised by that lol.
Good friends, best friends are suppose to be with you through thick and thin..... or so the saying goes. This summer I lost my best friend (figuratively) she's still here, just not here. If that makes sense. I got kicked in the teeth (again figuratively) out of no wheres. Being yelled at from friends hurts. Just because I don't act or deal with things the same way you do, doesn't mean every thing I do is a slap in your face. I was there for you, through everything life had to offer you and I get nothing in return; not even patience to deal with it; in my own way. It hurts, hurts almost as much as being replaced (easily replaced). Maybe on my end I thought there was more there?? more to the relationship then there really was??
This summer kinda sucks, trying to pick up some fun days with the kids when I can. Cause really summer is about the kids and not me. Payton is wanting to go back to school so bad. Every day she asks do we have school tomorrow? Clayton wishes summer would go on and on forever.
Only 3 more weeks left and hopefully life goes back to normal around here.
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